There have been more than a few times in my life when I felt like I was in a burning house—that feeling of helplessness, of betrayal, of feeling stuck in a room of flames.  And even more times when I felt like I was sleepwalking, wandering too close to the fire without even knowing the danger.  Perhaps that is life and what we are here to do—“to take what’s lost and broke and make it right.”*

It was shocking to see the devastation from the Bastrop Complex Fire of 2011 at Bastrop State Park in Texas—I can’t imagine what it was like just after the fire.  Yet, in the midst of the ruins from the fire were signs of resilience, new growth, and renewal.  Cheery red yaupon berries nestled among shiny green leaves contrasted with the burnt black bark of a Loblolly Pine tree.

In one fertile area of our hike, the new Pines were swiftly growing under the tall ghost trees that hadn’t survived the fire and one that had.  It was already looking ‘forest-like’ in this part of the park.

Along with the devastation was the hopeful new growth of Pines and Oaks.

The December day was warm and sunny, perfect for hikers and a little lizard crawling through the fallen leaves.

Replanting of the drought-hardy Loblolly Pines began in January 2013.  Volunteers and contractors have planted two million pine seedlings since that time and will continue to plant  in order to get a “mosaic of tree ages” as the forest re-grows.

This bright, tight growth of young pines probably originated from the fallen cones (seeds) of these survivors.  Often a threatened tree will produce an inordinate number of seeds to compensate for loss or potential loss of mature trees.

I admired these two survivors and wondered what had saved them from the mighty flames of the wildfire.  How were they spared?

Another tall survivor obviously sustained damage, but had a crown full of healthy needles and seed-laden cones.

A striking visual in the flooded valley (four years after the wildfire) was the color of the winter grasses.  One of the ongoing ways to curb erosion in the park after the fire was the application of a hydromulch—a slurry of straw, water, and native grass seed.  Normally these grasses would not grow in the shade of a forest, but they will stabilize the soil while the trees and native understory grow to repopulate the forest.

I caught a glimpse of a grasshopper in the grassy valley.

Even after the repeated devastation of fire and flood, pine seedlings were growing in the desolation.

One of the most interesting things we saw on our hike—that could easily have been missed if I wasn’t looking down—was a trail of ants carrying yaupon leaves.  The hiking trail was sandy and wide, so the line of green leaves, like sails on little red ships, readily stood out in the afternoon sun.  These are Texas Leaf-cutting ants, native to East Texas.  They collect plant material to bring back to their colony in order to build a fungi farm.  This fungi is their only known source of food.  Colonies house up to two million ants, so they can be extremely destructive to pine seedlings, citrus plants, agricultural crops, and landscape ornamentals.  They can strip a small to medium tree overnight!  The line of ants and leaves was as far as I could see on both sides of the trail.

We hiked through an section of the park that was not so intensively damaged by the fire—many scorched trees were still alive.  There were more Oak trees in this hillside area, and the path was strewn with acorns—food for the animals being re-established in the park and potential trees for the future.

Someone had built a rock cairn along the trail.  Many are used for ornamental purposes nowadays, but at one time, they were markers for navigation or memorial purposes.  Many remote hiking trails rely on cairns to mark which way the hiker should go, and many indigenous, sacred sites are marked with cairns.  Rock balancing art has its place, but many agree that it goes against the principle of Leave No Trace.

One of the loveliest signs of hope was a teeny tiny pine seedling growing in the debris of a fallen log.  Nature is the master of re-birth.

In the burning houses of our lives, how do we take the lost parts, the broken parts, the parts that keep us up at night and make them right?  How do we stop walking so close to the dangerous flames, even when it feels like the only thing we know how to do?  The aftermath can be devastating.  In the midst of the ruins, we are in shock, in disbelief.  How in God’s name did this happen?  In our disorientation, we may notice the survivors, the ones still standing.  The survivors sustained damage, too, but for some reason they are more resilient, and they are the beacons of hope.  It is the survivors and the empathetic helpers and the paid professionals who can work together to hold back the erosion of despair and plant the new seeds necessary for renewal.  We need a helping hand while we re-group and gather our wits and our strength.  We need cairns of caring people to honor what we have been through and show us the way to new growth and new life.  Nature (and Nature in us) is the master of re-birth, and we (and Mother Nature) need a helping hand in the aftermath of devastation—that’s how we make it right.

*from ‘Burning House’ by Jeff Bhasker, Tyler Johnson, and Cameron Ochs